D A L I F . C O M

Well as you can probably see, I'm not in the brigtest of moods tonight. Yesterday may have been the most boring day of the year, but today certainly hits the top 10 as well. I guess I've been illdisposed from the getgo, but I just really had a hard time getting into things this year. I just didn't feel like there was anything to celebrate. Yeah, I'm a nostalgic bastard, but my mood is hitting rock bottom on nights like this, when I'm sort of miserable, and everybody else is having fun. 

I dunno, I guess I just miss some things. And the fact that I miss these things just piss me off all the more. My mission in 2007 will be, if nothing else, to change a few of the things that are sort of pulling me down. Perhaps make a better effort to forget some of the things from the past which are bothering me.

Oh well.. fuck it, right? Happy New Year to you all. At least I have this place to vent.. I'm grateful for that, if nothing else :) Take care you all. Here's to a better 2007!

...was today. It was one of those days, where I just never really got anything started, I was too tired and too bored to even do the usual stuff I do when other people are bored. Just felt so lazy today, it made me annoyed. And the more annoyed I got, the more bored and lazy I was. Talk about bad circle. I had plans with mom and my uncle today originally, but they were cancelled, due to illness. So that was like half a day just handed over, and left me with nothing to do whatsoever. Sometimes I wish I had more friends around who'd want to go out or just hang. I watched a lot of scrubs today tho, which is fine. But even I, homeperson that I normally am, felt annoyed with just sitting inside today.

Also, I get annoyed when I think about tomorrow. Just as Christmas was my first 'alone' for many years (alone as in without a girlfriend), New Years will be as well. It's not like I've depended on girlfriends to have fun in the past, but it gives me an edge, in as much as I always knew I'd have someone to be there for me the next morning, you know.. Like a support for the New Year etc.. it's a good start to wake up next to somebody you love, no matter how fucking much your head hurts, or how much of yesterdays dinner you wanna give back to the sewage system. Just that safety and peace of mind knowing the person you let see yourself naked all the time, will be there to hold your hand, is incredibly important. This year I don't have that. Of course I'll be ok and all that, but it just gives me a few dark thoughts when I'd really rather be without. Anyway, this day today was boring as hell, and it's kind of a sad way to end a year with a few ups and a lot of downs. Life really is a rollercoaster, innit.

I went into town yesterday, to exchange three christmas gifts. Don't miss the story of my battle with annoying people and my own inner devil.

Yeah, I was at a friend, we went for pizza, and they had Speed going on the TV there. We watched some while we waited for the food to be finished, and I realized (well wasn't as much a realization as just a clarification) that I hadn't ever actually seen Speed, the movie, before. Note how I made sure we were talking about the movie? Good sport. 

ANYway, what this all leads to is my question to you, the reading many (noticed how I said many there, implying that.. well you get it). And don't get me wrong, I don't expect you to answer me or anything fancy or time consuming like that, I'm just asking this... rhetorically, I guess you could say. I was walking home from said friend yesterday, at oh say 03:15 in the morning, and as I walked, I heard a loudish moaning sound from a building about a block away from my home. Granted, this is a funny neighborhood, but still... The street was as good as deserted, but as I pass the street on which the house with the moaning is located, I do see a guy who's either JUST walked through what appears to be a hedge, OR he's really mad at his scooter, and is messing angrily with it, semi-bend over. The moaning sort of sounds like a help.. but could also just be somebody, in this case a guy, messing around or making funny noises. So here's the real question. What the hell to do? I'm naturally inclined to ponder if the person needs help. As I see it, there are three things to do. 1: Go home, think nothing of it, and let that be it. What people do is their own business. 2: Go home, casually call the police, and explain to them what's going on, and ask that they just send around a squad car, to casually investigate. And the third option, option 3 if you will, is one that implies 3 other sub-options. It's investigating it yourself, and taking action upon information received. The three suboptions have various degrees of seriousness. 3.1: You barge in on something that's totally innocent, thus making you look like a fool. 3.2: You barge in on something potentially dangerous, and you get mixed up with no so hilarious consequences. 3.3: You die from being nosy.

Which one is it? I dunno to be honest. I chose option 1, and I can't figure out if I should feel bad about it or not. I mean, I wasn't even able to identify a distinct cry for help. And if I was, how is my barging in and putting my life in danger any solution? On the other hand, what if I could've helped?

I decided to let it rest, and try not to think about it. Not that it's taking up large amounts of brainpower to be honest. But it does make me wonder. I mean, if I see something going down on the street... a girl getting raped, or a guy getting beat up by somebody, would I help? I think I would. But I'm still not really a fighter by nature, and I wouldn't be quite sure what to do. I'd have to think about my own safety as well, however egotisical that sounds. I hope I don't see any newsflashes about this incident tho :)