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Sheesh. With my upcoming full time job approaching, life is busy here at work. I'm getting more and more text assignments, and 3D modellings and I'm working with people from different companies. It's best noticed here on Dalif.com with a lack of updates. While I've had several things to write about in the last two weeks, everytime I'd begun a post on here, I'd been disturbed by some real work, and had to abandon it. Because I'm scatterbrained, I tend to forget the funny and insightful comments I wanted to make. Even right now, as I'm writing it, I forget one of the three main issues I wanted to discuss today. 

One was my lack of updates. The second is this whole controversy surrounding Madonna and her tour. I don't get it. I really don't. Perhaps it's because I'm not religious. Not by any means. I've discussed that before back with the Mohammad cartoons. And again with the DaVinci Code. And now the Catholics are up in roars again, because Madonna is seen on a cross in her stage show. What the hell? Why can't they just see past the fact that it's a cross. I'm not really a Madonna fan either, but I mean come on. She's an entertainer ferchrissakes. She's a pop star. So fucking what is she's on a cross? I mean, what difference does it make? But now, the Rev. Don Wildmon is getting his little gang of conservative middle american morale-nazis (The American Family Association) together, to put a stop to a special NBC is planning to show with Madonna, because it includes a controversial number in which Madonna
is seen hanging from a cross with a crown of thorns on her head. The Reverend Don Wildmon is appalled because he thinks she mocks Jesus. Again, I'm not a Madonna fan, but at least she has the guts to speak out about her views on religion and sexualism. She may have done some outrageous things in her past, but at least she's stood by them. Not like snivelling little oh-so-holy Catholics, who pretend they are working for a better America, and that they have the American Families best interest at heart, when all they really want, is personal promotion, getting their own twisted views forced down other people's throats all the while keeping their multiple skeletons in their respective closets. They are all a bunch of god damn (pun intended) hypocrites. Just the name "Family Association of America" gets my blood boiling. I can't stand this total devotion to a cause that will put aside ALL other arguments as blasphemy towards an entity that nobody knows for sure if exists, and a man who lived 2000 years ago. It's fanaticism, and it's not good for a human being to be a fanatic. Nobody is able to control it. And religion, while helping some people, sadly corrupts many others.

I don't remember what the third thing I wanted to write about was. Perhaps it'll turn up soon enough :)

Oh btw, I just remembered one more thing. Just a brief recount of my weekend. Went to my grandma's birthday party. It's an annual thing, but had been moved up one week from all the other years, which meant my grandfather couldn't be there with his wife (grandma and pa has been divorced for 40 years or so, but remain good friends), which was a sad loss, as granddad is always up for some fun and games :) And my uncle couldn't be there either due to a busy work schedule. To top it off, Tessa wasn't with me this year (for obvious reasons) so I couldn't turn to her for support. My mom was there of course, and that was all well, but the missing of the rest of the family meant I was so much more aware of being socialphobic. I think I managed alright through the night, but I'm just so bad a chitchat. I can't focus, so I tend to keep to myself, unless spoken directly to. The table I sat at, which had mom at it as well, was a fairly good table tho, with lots of random and idle chatter, which I always like. Good people there. And I had a talk with Casse over the phone, before I went back to out sleeping quarters where I was lucky enough to catch the second half of Donnie Brasco on telly. It was good to see grandma again, and besides from having to move a lot of heavy furniture (physical labor is never fun, no matter how much sugarcoating to apply), it was a decent trip. Would have been ace with uncle and grandad there as well. But hey, we can't win 'em all, can we? :) And there's always next year!

Been fiddling with those damn drops of water on my can of coke for a while now.. I've finally gotten them to look like water, which is nice... but they don't show enough on the can itself. They are hardly visible on the brigth red Coke can. Perhaps I should try the Dr Pepper one again, see if that's better. I put a few on the table (drops of water), and I hope They'll look better there. I'm rendering it as we speak, and you can view it later on in my gallery.

Tessa wrote me yesterday, on msn.. and I replied, but she had left the comp. A few hours later, I send her a text. She had lost her phone right after we broke, and I wasn't sure she had gotten it back, but I took a chance. Turns out she had. We texted a bit. It gave me a warm feeling to know she's still out there. While I know she probably misses me a bit, it is still nice to hear it once in a while. You know.. just a reminder that it all matters a bit. Some people tell me I should get over those types of emotions... and while that may be the best solution, I'm not that kind of guy. Sure, I can be harsh and tough when talking to people.. I can see distant, even with people close to me. I can be snobbish.. and seem reserved. But I'm most of those things by choice. And that means I'm really a highly emotional person. And when somebody I've been attached to for 3 years almost on a daily basis... and felt... no feels very much for, interest, respect, friendship and above all love, goes away from one day to the next... well call me old fashioned, but that doesn't mean I can just put it down and walk away. I'm not that kind of person. and as such, it's nice to know that we care for one another... I think so anyway.

Oh well.. it's weekend now, and I have a nightshift tonight. It's the only one this weekend, as I traded my saturday one off for next Thursday, thinking I was gonna go to Tessa's birthday/graduation party. But, for obvious reasons, that was cancelled - at least for my part. So now I'm gonna go out drinking with mates instead. Sunday is still open. I have an offer to travel to a local island, Bornholm, to see the hotel that my dad and several other board members, bought some time back. Just a one day trip, to check it out. It's rather early in the morning tho, so I'm not sure I'll go. Depends on the saturday I guess :)

Seem to have tagged quite a few categories on this bad boy, eh. Yeah well... don't go thinking loads of things are happening in me life, cos frankly they ain't.

But life does progress, however slowly, and I tag along. Yesterday and today I picked up a little slack when I decided I should model something that wasn't strictly connected with modelling apartments. But fortunately my mentors care little what I do, as long as it's 3D - relevant and good for practice. I decided to model a soda can, and I wanted to make it look really good and realistic, so I chose to try something new, altho something we'd be required to know later on; vray rendering for 3dsmax. So I modelled the can, which wasn't terribly hard, but still proposed a few hiccups. Adding material was tricky, but I managed, and the end result kan be viewed by clicking this link.

Besides this, most of my time is spend at home, messing with the server, listening to music and contemplating my life. Been listening to T. Rex - Children of the Revolution a lot lately. I dunno why, but the track just really touches something. It... Yeah I dunno, I guess it just sort of makes me think of the childhood I had... not that the lyrics makes any sense whatsoever. When I hear the song, I picture the 70s in my head, so that's not even relevant. It's just... it means something. Can't explain it.

The heat is pretty hardcore around these parts, and I'm sweating my ass off on a daily basis. It cooled off a bit today, during the evening, and they promised rain and thunder. Haven't seen any glitching yet tho, so perhaps it will be around come early morning. Would be nice to have the heat cleared up just a bit. Takes some of my concerns off my shoulders I guess. Bright side is, I've only got 3 shifts left at the hotel. One Friday, one next Thursday and one Fri. June 30th. Then that's it. No more hotel at night for me. Of course I'll have to figure out what to do instead. I might as well I guess, altho I'd fucking love not to work in the weekends. Frankly, I'm sick and tired of always having to go somewhere. And even then, it still seems like I never get anywhere. Funny how life is ironic like that.

Wow.. has it really been that long. Well I guess easter took its toll on me. Been working a lot lately, so I kind of got myself into a slack on this site. It is of course not my intention to close it down, so don't worry folks... it's merely a little lump on life's long straight line. Anyway, not really a lot has happened since before easter. But for updates on what has gone on, read along...